In the college process I have been accepted to all the CSU's I applied to like SFSU, SJSU, SSU, and EBSU. Honestly I didnt expect to get accepeted to all of them but I am super proud that I did. besides the CSU's I applied to Santa Clara University, where i was denied from. I was really no upset from the denil because I expected it, I mean I would have loved to get accepted but either way that is not the school for me. Although my moms reaction to this news was extremely heartbreaking. She wanted an answer as to why I did not get accepted, and i obviously didnt have the answer, well I mean I guess I do that there are more qualified people for that school and I not good enough but i didnt want to say that so I just said I dont know why and she responded saying that it is because i am stupid. LOL I just cried for like 30 min haha but its okay because im going to SFSU anyways!!!!!!
As college is getting closer i am becoming even mor and more scared. I think im more scared than excited. I feel like my family isnt to worried about it yet because they havent realised the fact that its not as far away as it seems like it is, I literally have like 5 months left. And well I guess i havent really realized it either until now that I am writing this.
The decision that i have made is that I am going to attended SFSU and I will be living in the dorms. My family is totally supportive of my decision.
On my mind is how am i going to survive college without my mom. Even though can be mean and annoying I really really need her and I rely on her for everything I an everything, so yeah im really scared,

My family, haha well my family is there at home all the time. My mom has become very supportive of all my decsisions and choices. Before we acted like cats and dogs towards each other to the point where we seriously hated each other but now it is way way better. She is so supportive to everything I am doing and even if she isnt she lets me do it anyways. My dad, well he isnt around anymore. He was never really part of all my school things before so there isnt much difference. My mom is okay with where ever I go to college but she really wants me to saty close. She says it is because I dont know how to be on my own and I need but i really think it is because she just love me soo much and doesnt want me to be far from her. Because i have gotten so close to my mom and even before I am so dependent torwards her, she does everything for me, my laundry, food, haha everything. I am overall very attched to my parents.

Financially because my parents recently separted it is preety rough on my mom but my dad still helps out a lot with money and i have a job so I TRY to save up as much as I can for college. Both my paresnts say that they will help me with money as much as they can! I even over heard my mom teling her sister that if she has to she is willing to get a seconfd job to help me with money. And my dad has always told me that he will help me as well.

I hate being stressed, it ruins my mood, days and my overall life. I Think I have gotten over the stage of being stressed over everything, school, work, and life in general. I know I have to get many many things done that I am not really on top of like i should be, and really procrastinating to get them done but its just not stressing me out anymore. Thinking about graduating in a couple of months, going to college and leaving all my family and friends, I just want to make the best of every situation as bad as it can be and not let me get stressed. For example, AP English is a pain in the a*%, and i currently really hate because its so HARD!!!!!! But i really enjoy the class it self i just try to be very open minded and try to not always have a negative attitude towards it. I feel like i haven't let my self be stressed, when I feel like i getting there I just stop think, and reflect an all the things in my life I should be happy and stress free about. Its my last year in high school, when I really old like around 30 i want to look back at school thinking that I had a good time, instead of being super stressed and depressed all the time just worrying about school thinking that its THE END OF THE WORLD when its really not. for the next to moths I'm looking forward to making a lot of new fun memories and a lot o new things (now that Diana can drive we will never be home). Another thing that I cannot wait for is receiving my acceptance letters for the colleges I have applied to but i am defiantly dreading that i will be denied to all of them!!! In the very endless and annoying college process i have only heard back from CSUSF that i got ACCEPTED!! But i am still waiting for 5 more college. I'm so scared to got to college, I'm honeslty so afraid to be without my parents and friends. but cant wait to parrtyy!! jk